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TO EVERYONE ELSE THAT "SAY" THEY LOVE ME- BRITTANY, CHELSEA, JAMIE, BRIANN, JUSTIN, PARKER, BEN...thanks for ALWAYS being there, even when im a total bitch cause i knwo i fucking can be but u always stuck around cause u know i was just upset and HURT like i always am these dayz, but yall were always there sticking up for me and fucking meaning it and i love yall so much and i will never NTO mean it because i have a past with all of yall adn i was always there and never called u shit and told ur past er anything when we were fighting and always came back cause i loved yall and i never wanted to loose yall!!! i know i fucking want to die all the time because shti gets started and things get said and i get hurt like always, but i think of yall and i pull out of it cause all i gotta do is think of yall and im ok, because yall NEVER let me down and are faithful to me and if yall did let me down er said shit about me, it was for a reason, because of me! yall just gotta understand i have a past and its going to take so long to getover it and over things and OVER PEOPLE AND OVER LIEZ! just please people stop lieing to me be fucking real to me and maybe i wotn be like i am now!!! dont fucking tell me u love me if u really dont!!!...because im stupid enough to believe it....
Jamie-i love you so much babe, i never want to loose u! my whole life u have been there, u may of lied to me about some things in the past but i always got over it cause ur eveyrthing to me and i cnat take it when i feel like its the end between us...but u need to get over the issue where u think u need a guy to love you and hold to live, cause you dont! u need friends adn family cause when that guy drops u, guess whos going to be there and who wont! guys will always come in go, but TRUE friends will always stay, even when there fucking mad at u, I WAS STILL THERE!!! i still called u and asked if u were ok sometiems, EVEN WE FUCKING HATED EACHOTHER!! but just be strong and dont let people push u around cause if u do then ur just going to keep getting beat down cause there just going to keep hurting u cause they dont fucking care for you,there just getting what THEY want, but its the people that dont ask for anything and are just there asking if ur ok and give u every amount of love u need and make u remmeber all the memeories and laughter adn let u see that later down the line ur going to be alright and have those laughs again!but i love you and u are beautiful so dont let anybody tell u ur not cause they dotn knwo what the fuck there talking about, I DO :)! if u never came in my life...idk where ill be right now...! i love you so much babe and think positive...and the best will come to you!
Brittany-baby i love you so much!!! u make me feel special and make me so happy everytime im around u!!! i never want to loose you! and im so scared i am still!its just my past ok...! i love you so much!!! im so happy ur in my life!! everytime i want to die, i think of u and all the laughs u gave me and all the happyness u brought in my life! ur so wonderful brittany and beautiful so please dont ever say ur not again!!! im so happy ur happy now and i gave u the guy of ur dreams! im never going to regret getting yall together cause its one of the very few things i did right in my life!!!! i love yall so much and yall are so meant for eachother!! but please dont ever say i dont really love you and care for you cause i do and i always will! stay beautiful baby, im never going to let anything bad happen to u baby ever again!!!!
Chelsea-omg chelsea im so glad i have u in my life again, i was miserable without u and u fucking no it! i love you so much! and PLEASE dont ever regret what u did and think its ur fault cause ITS NOT!!! its mine for not forgetting it!!! so dont think all the stuff i did er all the things im doing to myself now is ur fault cause its not ok! im glad u did that to me sometimes cause i acually felt love then and i was the happiest i ever was in my life!!! u always been there for me chelsea and i love u for it! ur never scared of anything!!! and im so glad ur happy now, i just wish i was all the time to!! but IM SOO SORRY for hurting u and im sorry for all the things i said, u know i didnt mean it, it was all out of anger! ohi love you so much! u make me so happy when im with u to! and make me laugh so much its not even funny! dont let nobody get to u know more, cause ur also a beautiful gurl inside and out and whoever that gets u is lucky! but never think anythings ur fault ok? cause its most likely going to be mine because im so stupid for nto letting anything go! thanks for trying to make me happy though!!...but i finally relized its just not possible...
Briann- omg baby i love you soooo much to! u are a beautiful gurl and dont ever say nobody likes u!! cause everones dieing to make u happy! im always there for u babe and u can cry on my shoulder whenever u want cause ill be there to hold u and keep u warm! i love you so much babe, u been threw just as much and it all get better soon for u babe cause i see it changing everyday! and im soooo sorry when i was mean to u cause i DIDNT know u, it was just cause i was to stuck up in SOMEBODY elses life to relize how stupid i was acting! ur so wonderful briann and i never mean to hurt u!!!! and i never will!!! i love you soooooo much babe!!! i will NEVER let u down!!!! and if i do...i will never mean it cause i will always love you deep down and that can NEVER go away over how upset i get at somthing, ask chelsea!!!
Justin-baby im so sorry it had to happen this way...but u are a WONDERFUL person and very HOTT! but i guess im not ready...and i really with i was...i do...im tired of this happening!!! but dont think its u ok!! and im kinda glad it did happen cause maybe we just moved to fast and i probley would of hurt u down the line cause we did...! but im still really glad chelsea got us to meet, ill never regret it!! and i still mean every word i said in those emails, i really do!!! but ur something specail justin but just give me time ok and UR NOT like any of my other bfz and not like ANY other guy, ur so wonderful! but its just me ok!...just give me time! and when im ready, i just hope u still feel the same about me...cause i always will u...but then again i dont want u to wait, cause theres nothing really to wait on in me...u need someone better right now, so dont be scared to go out in find it!!!but i DO still love you babe, and i always will...
Parker-hey omg now u lol, u are one of THE greatest guyz in the world!!! i love you oh so much!!! u always knwo the right things to say to me tomake me smile!! ur always there for me and im so happy i have u in my life!! and ur what i need right now! i dont EVER want to loose you baby!! and i hope i never will!!!u make me cry somtimes cause u just make me feel so special its un real!! u might not think its a big deal, but i never had anyone like u....! its so wonderful to knwo urll always keep me warm and safe when i get thrown out in the cold and i know u will! u never let me down!!! i hope u find ur love soon cause ANYBODY would SO LUCKY to have you!! i love u so much parker, and thankz for always knowing what to say!!
Ben- oh im sooo happy ur happy! babe thanks for always being there, thanks for all theh calls, thanks for all the emails, thanks for everything ben! u are so wonderful and brittany is so lucky to have you!!! im really happy both of u are happy cause i hated to see yall down! i love yall both so much! thanks for always being there ben!! thanks for always trying!!! just thanks for everything!!! i never want to loose what we have, i love you so much!!!! |
